Taking a mental health day :)

I'm taking a mental health day today. It was totally planned so I didn't have any cancellations to make with anyone but it feels so great to be off of work for the day. I haven't had a full regular work day off since July. I slept in and woke up with Mr. Learning and sent him off to work. It's 11 am and I'm still in my jammies right now. My plans for the day include getting an oil change and getting my hair cut and colored with Mrs. Regular. I haven't seen her in a month so it will be great to have a little time to spend with her. I miss them, not really in the sexual longing sense but I miss the energy that they brought to the table. It's just life, but they turned out to be great friends in addition to great swing partners. We got a call from Mr. Regular yesterday inviting us down to their house on Wednesday night. So we will be spending the night at their home and then going off to my inlaws place for Thanksgiving.

We are almost done nesting. We have been hitting it hard because our family/close friends baby shower is out our house. We invited the Chemistry's and the Regulars to our shower...funny huh? We are hoping that the Chemistry's and the regulars are able to hook up before/after the shower because they had some awesome chemistry going on. We only want the best for our friends.

It appears that I have popped out pregnancy wise overnight. On Saturday, I felt a lot of pressure in my stomach and I swore on Sunday when I looked in the mirror that my belly now is larger than my boobs. I'm a 36C girl so I was like, "Aha, there you are baby!". The only thing that was pretty small on my body was my waist so it's gone now. It's funny how your body slowly changes with expecting. I kind of thought it was going to be overnight but it was pretty gradual. My breasts are still the same size though :)

Life is good though. I'm adapting better for the future changes. I'm the type of person that hates change but I'm getting better. It just takes me a while to transition into things...

It's been a little over two months...

I haven't been here in so long, it's not even funny! Goodness...see what pregnancy brings you. I'm about 24 weeks along right now and bigger than all outdoors. That's okay though. The baby is healthy and I finally am getting back on track. I had to hit a dietician this past week because I was gaining too much weight :( Fortunately, I found the issue, eating too darn much. When I asked my doctor a few months back about my calorie range she noted to eat 300 calories more a day. Well I thought that would look like 1700-2000 but infact I should have been only eating 1500 a day. Thus the massive weight gain in two months. I basically have to maintain my current weight for the rest of the pregnancy.

Okay swinging wise, well that was done back in July. We went away with our regulars and the chemistrys in September and that was fun. Mr. Learning and I did our thing while they enjoyed each others company. It was finally nice that the regulars got to be with a cute couple. We've seen who they have been with so finally they hit in their league. We hit a party to socialize back in October to say goodbye to everyone. I have to say, it was ackward as a hell but it was a good closure to say goodbye to everyone we met. We are now officially retired in that area. We essentially have not seen the chemistry's since September nor the regulars. It's just wrapping up I guess. We are still in periodic contact by facebook but essentially, it's done too. Maybe they were all what I call transitional friends, they are in your life as long as they are supposed to be and transition out accordingly. Or maybe they were never friends, just swing partners.

So we are essentially floating right now. I'm not too sure if that's a great place to be but that's where we are. We have been busting our butts for months, getting the house ready, going back to our normal vanilla life, which is nice and quiet. Exactly where it's supposed to be, right? LOL...

This wave of sadness just flowed over me...

Maybe its my pregnancy emotions (I have to be honest, I haven't had that happen a lot at all maybe just once) but I'm sad right now. Mr. Learning is at the gym and he'll be home soon to comfort me and tell me it will be okay. I took down our profile at our site...well didn't completely take it down but just removed everything off there except that we are on a break until next fall. That actually made me get all teary eyed. It's like closing a chapter of your life...wondering where it will lead. Can we get back here once again? So I'm sad. We had an awesome year and now it's another awesome. Vanilla life with hopefully some sprinkles.

HNT!

What to do? What to do?

Okay, ever have this happen? You really like a couple a lot.  They are smokin hot, talking smoking. But...your vanilla life in the future could instersecr big time in the future? That's where we are at.  We love the DJs but Mr. DJ is in my field.  We'll he'll be in my field when his finishes his masters.  He lives in the area that I work in and most of his former coworkers have came to my work place.  I'm in a good spot with my job.  In fact I could be a supervisor down the road and thus puts me in a bind because what if in the future.  Yeah, totally enjoy them but I'm thinking we shouldn't enjoy them fully lol.  

Happy Swing Anniversary to Us!

It's our swing anniversary! A year ago today we decided to take the plunge and create a profile. It happened when we were in Colorado Springs and we just got back from a strip club. The strip club was horrible but it was fun creating the profile. Its been an entertaining year. Our lives will be totally different a year from now so we are living in the moment.

It's been a while since we have been to a hotel party...lets see two months? There's one five minutes from our house tonight so we are going. A year ago, if you would have told me that I would love hotel parties, I would have thought you would be crazy. Over the past year, I grew to love them because it's one place where you don't get truly rejected in the lifestyle. If people are truly not interested in you, they don't spend chatting your ear off and flirting. I've gotten better at communicating, flirting, and socializing at these parties. Back in the day, Mr. Learning and I supported the wall. Now we are cutting a rug on the dance floor. We'll we may dance some but I don't want to overdue it. I'm still not able to have sex or masturbate...blows but at least I can still blow Mr. Learning!

The lil bean is alright :)

I have to say that I was pretty down the past week. After the spotting returned on Monday, I was like, "oh not again". When I chatted with my doctor on Tuesday, she had me discontinue the workouts and the sex until further notice. I understand the sex part but I was really trying to barter out some working out. After four minutes of listening to me, she was like "what do you not understand? no working out at all" in her calmest, most sweetest voices because she is a really sweet doctor. She set me up for an ultrasound on Friday. I got my scan and I have a rather active bean inside of me. The sac looked good and heartbeat was strong. My fears were lifted because I swore I was not pregnant and I lost the baby. I was wrong so far so good for baby. Just a few more weeks until we are out of the woods.

This weekend is the first weekend that we are hanging out at the home alone since April or May. It's what we really need. Our pacing is run run run run and that needs to slow down. I'm going to attack the house and do some massive cleaning. Mr. Learning is going to smoke a turkey and paint. Nice, huh? We live in a cool area. Initially I did not like it because it's a little more conservative than what I was used to but living in an urban area really gets you more in tune with the world around you. Yes, there are shops that I'm dying to come to town that don't make sense why they are not here yet, but give it a few years, they will be here. So today we are going to go about life for the first time in months in our home and that feels, well terrific. Here's to a great Saturday!