I am pretty proud of myself.  Today was the first time in a week that I haven't cried about transitioning. Yesterday, I even had a moment of "I am happy to be done with them..." as I giggled with my boss.  She laughed and said that the new replacement will "have fun with them".  I love my boss...she is an amazing woman.

I've been pretty smart about the transition so far.  I think I picked out a great company that is much easier going than I am used to.  I will be in the same position but I have skills that others do not have, thus, I will be somewhat a pioneer and power player.  This new company is very eager and very happy to have me, as they should be.  I do rock at what I do and I can run circles around others. Or so I think...

As the transitioning, I will be doing a longer commute until our house sells or hubbies company buys it from us (within 60 days).  Our new house is set to close in mid September.  We are getting a brand new spanking house and I am excited about that.  Our new mortgage rate is going to be $75 cheaper than our current home plus we get a new home and 600 more sq feet.  It's a ticky tacky but we will make it our own.  We will live about 5 minutes from some swinger friends but our relationship is purely vanilla now that I highly doubt if we will hit it with them one day.  Humm, though I guess we will cross that bridge when we come to it.

When it concerns swinging I wonder how it's going to work in the future.  Not that we are even discussing it but the thoughts are there.  Right now, we are somewhat anonymous in our community.  We rarely run into others and we just do our thing.  In our new community, it's smaller.  You know the type of community that everyone know everyone else's business.  In fact, my husband has coworkers who live right down the street from us and they already know we are buying the home before anyone else.

Our friends swing with others who have kids on the same sports teams and other various community activities.  We've seen them sexting back and forth while at a soccer game with their fellow friends.  I don't know if I could do that.   It's like "yeah, I fucked you last night but now I see you in full mommy mode at the game".  I couldn't imagine in the future going to my son's school and seeing a dad/mom I was with the week before.  What about if people talk?....they tend to always do....lots of risks.  I like being anonymous...I like others not knowing my business unless I share.    So how do people do it?  My kind of fun is being anonymous at a party and just letting things flow.  We love not knowing others.  Our friends have a group of 10-20 couples who have all been with each other.  That semi freaks me out, like "hey I was with them, susie was with them, john was with them, etc".  That just seems too close to me.  We giggled last night that the friends will probably stop inviting us to their parties now that we are a few minutes away....we'll see.

Getting there.....slowly :)

I am wrapping things up right now and I am in that phase of saying goodbye to some amazing people in my life.  I'm a pretty lucky gal because I have been touched by so many.  I was breaking the news to some people I work with and have had several break down at the news.  We cry together and I infuse them with positivism noting "you will be all right" "you can do it...look at all the progress that you have done, it wasn't me" and I believe that.  I believe that the move is going to be good for me know.  When looking at the large picture, potentially I have the impact of becoming stronger, more influential in my position because I have something to offer that no one does.  It's kind of nice to have a feeling of being a power player.  I can really do some shaping to the landscape.

The added bonus is that my commute is now knocked down to half of what I was doing, my son will be 10 minutes away from work, and the pace is going to be so much different.  Right now, all I know is  RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN.  Though I get paid a ton for it.  My new position, not so much but it sounds like my new pace will be slow slow slow.  My quality of life is going to be better.

The benefits of all, I get more time with my family, commute time is cut in half, my son is 10 minutes away so I can visit him on my lunch hour, and life is going to slow down.  My new house is twice the size of my old one, it's brand spanking new, and the payment is going to be $60 less than what it is now.  Funny....

So thanks for putting up with me.  I am in a good spot looking forward to new adventures and getting a new me back.  Healthy lifestyle back so that I can be the best I can be for Mr. Learning because he deserves it since I have been so disconnected lately.