In three months, my life is going to look different. The limbo of the last two years will possibly be gone. We will be living in a new city, new job for me, new home, new daycare for our son, and hopefully a new outlook.
Life.....has.....been......challenging. I've shut down. In almost every sense. I'm numb. I don't do well with change. I never have. It's my personality and my quirk about myself. I crave structure, routine, and structure again. While others crave new beginnings, I always cling to my present, fearful at times of what the future may bring. So I am pressing forward. I know if I cling to what I currently have now, it will not be that way in the future.
I need to be more flexible, more open. I landed a decent job, very family friendly, and flexible. Pressure will hopefully less and my quality of life will increase.
With all of the stuff going on, I have emotionally shut myself down. Sex is essentially non-existent. That's an issue. I'm so out of touch with myself that I am not connecting well with Mr. Learning. So here's to three months and hopefully I will have something wonderful to report and I will wake up to happiness again.
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I'm sorry to hear that you're having such a rough time in some respects. Good luck with the new job, new home, and all that goes with it.
ReplyDeleteWelcome back to the blogosphere. I have missed reading your posts. Hold on, things will stabilize. I thrive on change, but stagnate under stability.
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Mr. No Name
I am so sorry to hear this is going on for you I also have missed reading your posts. Change can be challenging but without change we will never grow.
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