Vanilla: Life has had it's personal mini challenges lately. It's not the current issues but it's the stuff on the horizons. Stemming from my father's health issues, to Mr. Learnings job, is where I have been struggling. Coming home last night and snuggling in bed, we have been discussing our future path. Changes are coming and the can be well worth it and rewarding. In reality, I have been quite stagnant. I cannot control if my dad has Parkinson's or not but I can control how I live in the here in now with him. I need to stop worrying about losing him for if that is my focus now, I've lost him. I can't be resistant to change or I will never grow. And growing is what makes someone beautiful, doesn't? Staying the same is boring. Imagine if I never changed, where would I be? what risks would I have not have taken? Would I have ever dared to try to be a swinger? or would I have kept it safe and went with the norm.
I haven't made any stupid decisions in life so far. I've tried to do everything that I wanted to in life with no regrets. I've learned from my mistakes and kept on growing. It feels like the past year and a half, I've played it safe. I don't know if it was because we had baby learning but all of the sudden life got complicated and I yearn for security. Yet, I also want change. While snuggling in bed the other night, I started browsing the net for jobs in Mr. Learnings new area for his job. There's a great leadership role in which I am very much qualified for. Yes, I would have to take a pay cut but the title would be worth it. Plus to take advantage of Mr. Learnings relocation program would be amazing. I could work in a city that I would live in without the hour commute. We would have family and friends near us. Life could be better and less complicated. I revamped my resume and it looks awesome. Mr. Learnings dad came up and they helped me work on a killer cover letter. Now I just have to mail it out. Send me good vibes because this change could be positive.
Swinger: I'm excited to hear all the plans that you lucky folks have on New Years. That is so awesome so I am vicariously living through you all. Nothing is happening on the swinger front. I'm still a chunky monkey with no drive to change right now. I'm just so tired all the time. Baby learning has at least 7 teeth popping up right now so I'm still in my laziness mode. I want to start being healthier but I'm so not in the zone. Just in the self preservation mode. So keep it sexy for me :)